Borntothevoid

I’m still ‘here’, but I guess I’m also still ‘there’ - did I ever leave? I found a new trigger today. Or maybe it has always been under my skin, injected years ago. Or just another late effect of Cisplatin. Either way, it rose again today in the dark clammy space between dawn and the first shift change. That feeling of lying in the dark waiting for your next nurse to realise you are already awake and ready to vomit up your next medication. Please leave the light off a little longer - the chemo is still burning my eyes out.